Scars of ...........

Dear,

        It's not a way to convince at all as because it's upon you always,from the very first day I told you;still the most unexpected thing I come to know from you that bla bla & lot more.And as far the concern of Sriparna goes there're many things which I never tell you;may be I'm not sure would you mind to hear those or not;being she's your personal acquaintance & so more.

So,if you think that I'm ultimately drowned by her or sunk in her love so much that I'm hopeless about Life.For your kind information there's nothing like that and even that's impossible for me,as you tell me that I'm a huge Personality still begging before you;truly funny & all.

Secondly,I witness numerous Sriparna's regularly;e.g.you hate me so much still you come to me make me friend & all,reason is still foggy........

Then,the reason behind all the Melo-Drama centering Sriparna,hopefully you're quite mature to digest it.And the story is something like that as she narattes to me & I'm just narrating the same before you.I don't even see her face to face,never have a video chat & anything like that,ya talk over phone & that's all.

Being in a relation with someone is that so much drowning so I witness you've so many.I never mind at all because that's not my business.Yeah,I try my best to made those relations lifetime(if you can remember),never remember that I ever try to break them up or anything like that.Reason isn't I love to lose you rather than I want to keep you happy,want your smiling face only,that the only desire I've.

I'm brought up in so many odd circumstances how can I come to know what's Love/Poetry/Music or anything that nourishes a human's soul.But since the day I met you even the 1st day is forthcoming(21st May) and as usual I'm determined to write something about even thinking of so many surprises(that's why ask your address in Kolkata) for you.As you know,I'm a bloody non-sense,what can I do for you!Just some thousand of poems and lot more appreciations,having the tag of Poet.

Let's come to the point,the reason behind drafting the mail the story behind Sriparna
The first interaction happens thru one of my status update;as you know am a Bloody Writer full of silly emotions;that day I talked to my father after almost 12 years,and being the bullshit.I just state my mind's state before public,among all the visitors she also comment.Ask me about my tragedy,I narrate & she also narrates her tragedy.

Although I'm damn scared to tell you all these but I've to because the truth must revealed;and the tragedy with her as she told me that she's being raped in her school days,it's a very brutal incident in fact and also it happened in a brutal way.It's done by her boyfriend's cousin brother who has a crush on her,after the incident she almost losses her hope of life,her private parts are brutally injured;even she's in comma.After this incident on behalf of our Hon'ble society members she shifted to Kota,Rajasthan.She's a brilliant student,passionate of being a Doctor,having dreams of running charitable dispensaries.

Although she doesn't narrate these on the very first day but as she drowning in love with me & as usual I'm avoiding her knowing her age in fact she's much junior to me;well but listening all these the only thought comes to my mind that there's hardly any guy ll accept her or anything like that.

Pause:please don't think I'm depicting my greatness but it's my bloody nature,which may be you never recognized,as you're not that sufferer but being a sufferer I know how much Life hurts when it's brutal.

I'm not habituated of depicting pain actually,since my childhood I witness & only witness brutality,scars of Life and now while earning my own bread-butter I realized

the World is fair enough in all ways,what we suffer is of our dreams or to be said of our basic instincts.

Well,think it's enough ll conclude here,and as usual best wishes for your rest of Life,may success,honor,fame all will be yours.